What does depression feel like? That's what ads for antidepressants ask us, as they parade about cartoons of sad rocks rolling lazily along a sparse black and white landscape. Right now, it feels like this enormous weight sitting on my chest, one that refuses to go away.
I look fine on the outside (even on Twitter), ...
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I've been through a metric shitton of therapy, both individual and group, to varying degrees of success. Spent two years in an intensive outpatient program (IOP), in fact. Grief recovery and suicide prevention was the main focus. Most everyone in that ...
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Happy Easter to you and yours. Hope it's a great day.
March's Resolution for the YOR was exercise...five days a week. I'm saying it was a successful month, despite being sick for the last couple of weeks. I plan to continue on ...
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One of my oldest blogging buds, James, and I have a lot of commonalities, particularly our battle with depression (and bipolar disorder). He wrote a post, listing some of the things he's grateful for. Think I'll follow suit because the Depression ...
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Got nothing done today. My brain sometimes acquiesces and let's me sleep, but not for long. It's not a manic thing, either. Not having the luxury of naps to escape...*sigh*
I wonder how long it's going to take. For lots of things. Meds. Mood. Me. How long does it take to gain a grip?
I'm tired of ...
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