Another long, rambling video about therapy.
Sept 30, 2009: Effed from Karl Erikson on Vimeo.
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I’m a writer. A lover, not a fighter. An amateur philosopher who enjoys shaving giraffes and dancing around my living room in my boxers.
Wow, it sounds like we are effed-up in the same way. Effed twins! I totaly get the setting the bar high for your self, but giving grace to other.
And, man don’t worry about responding. Just accept the support. That’s part of getting unbroken. Beleive me, it can be repaired.
Thanks for opening up to us man.
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Secondhand Karl Reply:
October 2nd, 2009 at 12:42 am
@CulturalSavage, I have a feeling we’d get along smashingly, then.
Part of dealing with it, for me, is doing it through writing. And where else am I gonna write about it but here?
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Right. Everything IS repairable (I hope I spelled that correctly), and you ARE worthy of support and love. You seem like a good dude, Karl. Keep working with the MT. A lot of folks are rooting for you. Thanks for keeping us in your confidence while you’re working through this. XOXOXO
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Secondhand Karl Reply:
October 2nd, 2009 at 12:43 am
@Tracy, Well, you’re welcome. But I’m just being me. This is how I am.
And thanks.
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No advice, just big hugs from Minneapolis.
~Jess
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Secondhand Karl Reply:
October 2nd, 2009 at 12:45 am
@jessica,
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Right!
Don’t give up/you still have us.
Make a Crying playlist. Twenty minutes or so. Go in your room, plug in and fucking cry. For twenty minutes. You’ll feel better. Seriously. Do it. I’m not a big cryer either, but I do it every once in a while. It’s good for the heart in more ways than one.
Give yourself a ton of credit for dragging your ass to therapy and for recognizing that you need more than once a week. Progress, not perfection!
xoxoxo
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Secondhand Karl Reply:
October 2nd, 2009 at 12:45 am
@Finn, Now that’s a great idea. Hmmm.
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That feeling of being outside yourself? It’s a defense mechanism. I do it too. I feel some of the things you’re describing.
I get the not cutting yourself some slack thing too. Completely.
Please don’t shut us out. I promise I won’t do that (again) either. Can we at least promise that to each other? I think you and I need this community as much as it needs our stories, our light, our hope.
I wish I could take that walk with you.
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Secondhand Karl Reply:
October 2nd, 2009 at 12:46 am
@Karen Sugarpants, I wish you could, too, babe. Perhaps we should make time for just a you-and-me walk when you’re here?
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Lord, I don’t feel normal unless I have a few good cries each week. Seriously. And as for setting the bar far too high for oneself? Totally guilty of it here. I think that’s more of a problem amongst human-kind than any of us know.
Keep going to the Matrix Therapist. Keep punching at those scars. Keep working. Someday, Karl, someday you’ll look back and realize how far you’ve come.
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